Have you ever felt,
trapped,
where no one knows you,
or would want to.
Where you seem like a fragment of existence,
where no one can see
who you truly are.
The joys of the earth,
light of the morn and breeze of the night,
seem as non-existent
and far away
as if you were at the murky bottom
of that vast, wide sea,
gazing up at a moon that you cannot see
but know, fervently,
that if there.
The keys of that dusty piano,
seem to play just for you-
that haunting melody,
that speaks of someone lost,
never to be found,
again.
24 Sept 2007
You smile,
eye bags like swelling cresents,
lips stretching in a worm-like grimace,
reveaing teeth stained with caffaine.
Monday, September 24, 2007
Friday, September 07, 2007
And After a Long While with Zilch News...
I'm back! Hopfully for good. There is something to be said for regular writing, which i should get into regularly, or there would be a brain drain:(
What have i been doing since the As... well, alot has happened, so uch so that i feel jc was a million years away, in another lifetime. Life at NTU is great, as great as a sense of liberation can give you, though life at hall can be a tad lonely, especially for an unsociable person like me.
Work and personal life is very different, i realise. In the past it never seemed to be, but i guess i have more need for human contact now, though that sounds weird. I am extremely grateful to all my friends whom i have taken for granted- thank you for always reaching out to me.
I really feel that a person is really an isolated being. That's probably why we turn to the divine, who seems to have all the time and the mental inclination to care about you. One thing that I can say is that i have drawn so far away from God that even the Bible has ceased to inspire me- which is really bad. A mental lethargy- probably cause I have never really felt involved or engaged in church- it's just a great ball of sadness and misery for me there.
There was a time when I thought things could change, there was a time when thought effort could change things. I get discouraged easily. If i could live the moment, and not get stuck constantly in retrospection.
Really, sometimes life is so complicated.
What have i been doing since the As... well, alot has happened, so uch so that i feel jc was a million years away, in another lifetime. Life at NTU is great, as great as a sense of liberation can give you, though life at hall can be a tad lonely, especially for an unsociable person like me.
Work and personal life is very different, i realise. In the past it never seemed to be, but i guess i have more need for human contact now, though that sounds weird. I am extremely grateful to all my friends whom i have taken for granted- thank you for always reaching out to me.
I really feel that a person is really an isolated being. That's probably why we turn to the divine, who seems to have all the time and the mental inclination to care about you. One thing that I can say is that i have drawn so far away from God that even the Bible has ceased to inspire me- which is really bad. A mental lethargy- probably cause I have never really felt involved or engaged in church- it's just a great ball of sadness and misery for me there.
There was a time when I thought things could change, there was a time when thought effort could change things. I get discouraged easily. If i could live the moment, and not get stuck constantly in retrospection.
Really, sometimes life is so complicated.
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