alot of nothing, and alot of thanks;p

The exams are just over, Yipee! hahaz.. I smell mould on my blog, how weird is that....

Feeling beta after the headache, popped panadol and guess wad, it works, hahaz, so i'm as good as new, or almost. Wonder why I go through every paper 2 feeling sick, must be stress.

So here i am, crapping about myself and feeling at peace... as if.

Ya, i feel relieved, but still cant shake the sneaky feeling that i could be doing something constructive.

Like read a book, write a bit of a story, surf net, blog...

I tried the first, rejected the second(dunno where to start, and afraid i'll get caught in writing more than ten pages of rubbish), disliked the third (checked my mail though) and am doing the latter.

so that leaves schoolwork(like coursework- urgh) or comics(so bored of rereading)...

Mind, just let me enjoy the peace of no work, no stress and absolute stoning... great, that sounds negative.

now, for people who are reading this and wondering who kidnapped cui and is writing nonsense on her blog, it's just mi, toking to myself. Think people who know me shouldn't be surprised. I've got my crazy days, you know.

You know! hahaz... I think i'm officially crazy, will attempt to write something worthy of your precious time, sacrificed to read this humble blog... hey, that sounds weird...

ok, here goes:

I think i've been obsessed with flaws, like wondering why people criticize, why people feel negative things, and that we can never truly say how we feel. I mean all this is true, but it just shows how myopic and depressed I am. There shouldn't be a need to think about all these flaws, I mean, I can't change them, and no one dwells on negative feelings all the time, and i certainly don't. When i'm with people, I want them to feel happy being with me, and that gives me the greatest feeling ever.

I really want to thank everyone i noe for withstanding my nonsense(and no, I did not just win an award, thanx;p) and making me feel appreciated. I think it's a miracle to have friends, people who are willing to listen and talk to me, even though they are in no way obligated to do so. To all the people who listen to me rant (on and off this blog), THANK YOU!!!! I really love you all, because you make me feel that my existence means something. No, it's not in a negative way;p Although i might dwell to much in depression and make people who read my stuff sad (I hope not too much though) but I really want to thank u, all of you, for taking the time. Arigatou!!!!