So this will be my first official entry for the year...

well, i cant say that nothing much has happened, because so much has. Ppl might be wondering where i've disappeared to, but, well, to say the truth, i've never relli left except for the occasional trip to mars, hahas.

I'm working now at ben and jerry's, hahas, thanx to kim who came to pong chang on the first day!!!! I hope i can get the hang of everything soon, but janice and everyone is so helpful and encouraging, despite the high standards and expectations, that i feel quite relieved and enjoy working so much it's like fun everyday;p

Today's church gathering was such a success that i feel the love in the air, thank God for all the wonderful things that he has given mi!!! I'm like so stupid to be so negative all the time, because there is so much joy in life that i've missed just by moaning about things, that i've never relli felt young before. I relli want to change that now!

What is love? It's a rush of warmth when u feel the appreciation of the other. The thing that makes mi truly happy is when i feel that the other person can rely on me instead of mi always depending on that person. That kind of dependence i haf is the Yong En syndrome, hahas, the big brother syndrome, that i rely on him for stuff that i cannot do alone. Thanx a billion, big bro!

I guess that's the reason behind mi not confessing to the guy i've liked for so long at church. He's someone who inspires respect in mi, and i can feel that he values my words, which makes mi feel tingly all over, hahas. I've like given so much thought on this matter, fearing it to be puppy love or infatuation or just plain admiration, tt i've missed the point completely, i suppose. Love shouldn't be complicated or afraid, because it is something so rare and happy that it lights a person's soul from within and should leave no room for doubt or worry.

Missing the point is like so normal for mi. I think so much that i'm like sunny who chases his tail, haha. hurray for self inspection, and gambate for living life to the fullest! Haha!