The perfect Rose

Gaze
upon the epilogue of Life,

A shadow cast,
upon
the white
of the rose.

The soft
caress
leaving blemish,
where perfection once sought.

23 March2006

i'm beginning to like writing my blog,; i feel that i'm reviving my passion for writing, yea! Well, if i cant write long stories, a poem or two won't be as bad, would it?

i'm a cursed romantic, i think, courtesy to all the fantasy books that left a lasting impression on my young mind. So, as a hopeless case, i shall endeavour to question and note down some of my views, to see if i am a true romantic, or if the realities of Life have robbed me of even that...

Do i believe in true love? That's a question that i've asked, and others have put across to me. My answer is no, strike one for being a romantic.What is true love anyway, if not blind- yes, blind devotion to a single person. if you think u 'love' a person, will you not try to change yourself, no matter that the other does not require u to do so? so to what extent do you change urself? will you be happy at the end, or does true romantic love not require happiness of oneself, but ultimate sacrifice for your partner?

Although i'd love the notion of meeting a person who loves me as much as i do him, is that really possible? The chances seem quite small, unless u're both thrown on a deserted island with no one else, yeah... it's as much a throw of dice-chance, as much as anything else. Would appearances play a huge role in at least, the beginning of the attraction? It seems shallow and repulsive to judge a person by appearances, but it cannot be denied that it's the first thing people notice about you.

That accounts for the inordinate amount of good looking people in romance stories:o

And, i have to make it clear, i feel that equality should exist in the relationship, insofar as possible. The guy shouldn't do the paying all the time, though i agree with Faith saying that it'll turn out like that anyway- it's a male ego thing, haz. A sign when a girl- or me, not doing the paying would mean that she has no interest in the date(only going for the free stuff, haz) or that she's unsure of whether she likes the guy ornot, and is waiting to see if the guy will be interested enough to ask her out more to get to know each other. A sure sign of a girl paying is that she likes the guy and want's to leave both parties feeling happy(that the other is willing to go to the expense), or in the other extreme spectrum, that she wants to draw a clear line(i don't owe u anything and just walk away).

Well, at least that's some of my thoughts on the matter, though i guess people might say that a girl will let the guy do the paying if she likes him... Well, i don't suscribe to that, unless he has a sensitive ego...

Hmmm, wonder how this topic came about? Probably due to yesterday, when we were having lunch at nydc, and Faith asked me why i thought a guy shouldn't pay. We came to the conclusion that whoever initiated the date should do so, hahaz. Fair, isn't it? I drew inspiration for the above poem probably due to my search for perfection, but who knows how the mind works?