To Live for Me

I do not think
when i live
because it is hard
to find that balance
between confidence and
despair.

It is easier
for you to make the decision
for I will not worry
that it is my fault
that has caused
so much misery
and Pain.

But I know now
I cannot live thus
because I feel
because I care
about what I do
I want to express myself
and so must do away
with all useless fears
and live
finally
for myself.

02 May 2006

Feel as if I have finally awoken from a long dream- into a waking nightmare.

There is so much to do.

But I shall finally live for myself.

Don't worry, I'm not going to do anything extreme.