The voice of Doubt

Will you change,
when my back is turned,
when i see you dive out of range,
feeling the pain of being spurned?

Will you grow,
into someone i don't know,
into unreachable depths you throw
yourself into darkness' enticing glow?

Will you flee
away from me,
away where I can no longer see thee,
trapped in blissful reverie?

9 April 2006

Just got back from j8, went to pasta mania with my mom (for the first time!) for lunch, haz.

Today's been quite an okay day, though i still feel the drag of guilt and heaviness from not having done anything other than paint a little this weekend. Just went to Yishun to take pics of my first house, which has changed so much from my childhood impression. Not that the childhood impression is any more accurate, because I only seem to remember a certain coffeeshop downstairs, which is not in visible existence when I went just now.

Anyways, all that I've done is art, and i'm like feeling so bad about econs and lit, which i need to revise and do an essay respectively. Wonder when i'll find the time, haiz. Just shopped for Rindy's prezzie, and i feel so bad getting it for her late, Gomen! I will try harder next year!

Felt weird at church again, though i think it's good that i'm at least talking to them, haz. Wonder if that'll ever improve past that stage? Hope tomorrow's gp tuition will make me feel inspired, i really need that spark of motivation to work! (p.s. Rindy told me yesterday that she's gg for tuition too, haz;p)

Hope too that next week will be better, with good friday (Yea!) and it being a break from everything and all. Jia You!